How am I meant to love again?
That's the questioned you posed upon me
Poised, with this sinking sadness for what feels like eternity
Internally I'm shattered - worn from my whirring weary mind
Sometimes I think I want you
But I know I need space and time
Go ahead, jump on to another boat
But he knows deep down he won't stay afloat
For him, love is a revolving door
He needs a new girl to fill his empty core
The shallow route you choose to take
Will repeat again like your past mistake
And he knows it, and owes it
To tell no more lies
But a dishonest man can't face
The truth in these eyes
Running when he's too weak to fight
Still leaves a conscience knocking every night
And my compassion, my pity,
Is about to fade
For you must lay in the bed you made
At least I leave here with no soulful destruction
I will look at lost time like an alien abduction
I feel my heart in a clamber as it shuffles to the fumbling of my anxious fingers, twisting my unease and winding it around tips of my tilting mind. One second I'm fine, the next I just can't define it... a pang of sadness mixed with a familiar fluttering in my chest. I watched the night in the depths of my palpable sorrow, as my heart expanded with glowing assurance then evaporated with my burdened breath.
Like a gas lamp flickering with the ignition of light,
Like fireflies flitting through the warm navy night,
Flashing in temperamental hues,
My heart expanded again - before constricting too soon.
It's hurting, she misses him.
And he knows it too.
And in that moment they danced on an ethereal plane,
Twirling, exalting, like violet and blue flame,
For up here there is no more disdain.
Just love.
For the first time in forever I felt his presence,
But then once again I felt his pain...
And in the flash of that moment, eternity did fly,
Spiralling me back inside to the confines of my mind;
Lights off, returned to this darkened room,
For a moment I knew that he loved me too...
Before my heart dimmed and my breath did resume.
Looking out over an uncertain lagoon,
Shadow-cast by the glow of the moon.